Post by Eileen Dielesen on Mar 26, 2012 16:48:05 GMT -5
THE big lesson in my life has been learning to receive Love. I always found it easy to give to others and in fact I gave until there was nothing left to give and my petrol tank was empty. What I came to realise is that others were always trying to give to me and I was turning their gifts away. I turned away from compliments, hugs, loving looks, gifts, invitations and offers of practical help and support. How insulting and hurtful that must have been for all those people. How arrogant of me to think I didn't deserve these. I have come a long way in my journey of learning to receive. What I give out was always coming back to me and I just didn't recognise it! So in fact I was rejecting my own beautiful generous Self! In the beginning it was hard to receive because that old friend Guilt always came to visit and Unworthy was right alongside him. I just faked it till I made it. I faked my thank you's. I really didn't feel thankful, I just felt guilty and unworthy. In the process of change it is always challenging to change and it takes courage. Today I find it easy to accept complements, hugs, loving looks, gifts, invitations, yet I still struggle with offers of practical help and support.......but I am learning to change that and say YES! Each yes gets easier with practice. What I try to remember is that life is a JOURNEY and not a destination. I will always be growing and learning, that is what a journey is all about. May you journey into the place where you believe you are worthy and feel no guilt at accepting what you deserve to receive. With Love Eileen 
